Waiting

After all the hussle and bussle of getting everything ready for my classes, I've finally prepared all that I can before classes start next Monday. It has been such an intensely focused endeavor week after week since the beginning of July, that it's unnerving having nothing left to do, except wait to see whether my mounainous efforts in remaking my Abnormal Psychology is a spectacular success or spectacular failure. There are so many variables that I just can't control and it is up to me to be adaptable enough to deal with whatever unexpected events may come my way. If you know anything about me, it is this...I like to be in control. So, this uncertain outcome is making me feel quite unnerved. The busyness of preparation served to keep my mind occupied so that I couldn't dwell on my lack of control, so I miss the busyness.

Chelsea and Cody are still adjusting well to being back in school. They both have quite a bit of homework and have been diligently working every afternoon after school. They are both taking a 7th class on line, which makes their load a little more heavy than usual. It is such a relief, however, to see that Cody is doing fine thus far being a freshman in high school. Nothing untoward has happened to him, unless he isn't telling me, but I think I would notice a change in his demeanor if anything was wrong.

I'm teaching 5 classes this semester, with a total of 299 students (that's if I don't add any students above the scheduled enrollment, which by the way I always end up doing). That's a lot of students and a lot of grading. I'm hoping that I'll be able to keep up with all the grading. Yet another thing to worry about. So it's now a waiting game until Monday. Maybe I'll get a pedicure tomorrow to keep my mind off things.